Calling Out the Dead

[rebelyell08_PREV (deleted)]

To my great-Grandfather....WHAT happened??
To my grandfather..I am so sorry I didnt kiss your cheek and say good-bye, we were only going to be gone a little while.
To my brother..I am sorry I didnt hold you.
To E--c..My mother told me to call, I just thought I had more time!
To my Little One..Dr. said you never would have survived outside the womb.but I still feel like it's something I did. Suppose I will take that up with our Creator when I meet him(?).
To D-n, M-ke, T-rry..I am sorry I didnt listen, we were immortal then, remember?
To J-y..I will never forget that dance outside.Time meant nothing!we did have fun, didn't we.(WHY??!)
To Justin..I should have turned right on that freeway.What could we have been doing right now if I had.
My old Romanian neighbor..I should have said "thank you"(instead of laughing) for saying I was a beautiful woman the last time I seen you. you were gone by morning."Thank You!".
To Saun-a.. your daughter grew up to be a beautiful, happy woman.
To R--ert..I should have hugged you good-bye, what a sweet kid you were, your mother and I were just mixed up.I am sorry. I love you.
To R--dy..I am so sorry they dropped the cot.
To the man under the tree..the inside was broke, the tube wouldnt go.WE tried everything!
To the Mom and b--y..I am so sorry your world was cold. I will not forget you.Both.
To the 4 month old..the Dr. ordered disconnect. Your mom had you looking so pretty that day.You sparkled like a princess.
To the big guy..they told me to keep going! I am sorry you were delayed, I tried to call it.
To J--y, it was your last ride. Who would have thought? I am glad I was there. YOU made ME laugh!
To the man in the car..what could we have done differently?
To the little girl I was..I will never betray you again. I am sorry.

And all others who creep in from time to time..wondering if I could have done something better. Wishing I could have made things better.Wishing I was better, kinder sometimes.It's hard to keep thoughtful all the time that in the blink of an eye things can be turned upside down. Maybe thoughts dont pass away, and as we think on someone those thoughts are alive with them somehow. If any read this maybe for just that minute it takes they are alive and these words will reach out to them?And maybe then they will be quiet.

**G-d, i hope so..

[merinass (deleted)]

`This moved me to tears this morning..so much loss..but the thing is you never know and the dead are far more well informed then we are.

[(deleted)]

`Rebel you have a big heart and you care about others. This was very moving and I know you meant every word of it. I hope you know that they hear you and know you cared, they saw it in your eyes and they see you now.
Your job is hard for all the pain and suffering you see and have to try to save lives young and old.
You are a beautiful person inside and out and I am proud to call you friend..This was hard to read first thing in the morning..Wahkontah

[rebelyell08_PREV (deleted)]

`I felt like I was under attack this morning!

again the words of Cheif ("Seattle") come to mind "...for the dead are not altogether powerless."

May their memory here by those who read them ease thier souls (or mine) a bit this day.

[priestessashe]

`The sentence which began 'To the little girl I was...'
that one got me good. Hope you're doing alright this day, though this seemed incredibly hopeful.
Blessings on your home and you, dear.
And all the people you mentioned as well.

[rosesandwine2_PREV (deleted)]

`My goodness!! I just joined this site and started to read these forums. I was so touched by rebelyell08's words. How profound and well written. Such emotion to have carried on one's shoulders.

[blackfootedgirl]

`There should be a NAP "Best Of" like on Craigslist. this is incredible it would get my vote, awesome writing the emotion felt can be cut with a knife.

[rebelyell08_PREV (deleted)]

`I honestly, from the bottom of my heart, thank every single person who read this..for taking time to read this. It is no good to try to stuff things (people) like this in a dark place.